Oh how I now see what precious time I have been given this winter break! A month off was the perfect amount of time, and I’ve got 6 more days to get back in the flow. Now I have to stop the video games, end the Netflix marathons and the slumbering until 7:30 am. My brain must prepare for the Word of God I’ll need to memorize daily. It will be good to see my two good friends from Georgia come back.
The Lord is my rock and I cannot believe the opportunity I’ve been given to go to school on a full scholarship. I feel I abused the privilege given to me in the first semester. My time allocation is not the best and I make rash decisions of habit. I know I shouldn’t. I know better. Yet, I go back to what FEELS good; laziness and lack of responsibility. Childish, I know.
Paul describes the battle with the flesh in Romans 7:14-15.
(14) Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.
(15) For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing; for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.
I know my battle with my flesh nature will last until the day I die. And I know I have the power within me (the Holy Spirit) to do the right thing, make the right choices, be the man God needs me to be. It’s just time to be a man… Paul was inspired by God to write this excellent passage in I Corinthians 13:11.
(13) When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
Time to put away childish things and fill myself with God’s will, so that I may properly discern what my next moves are.